Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Struggling to let hope go... while holding onto Faith

Prissy with Faith...  

Ecclesiastes 3 tells us that:

"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,... 
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,...
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,...."

And... there are more times that those. Some are not listed. But one thing I know, some "times" are harder than others. Yet each "time" has its reason and purpose. Today's "time"....?

Last night a nurse for a little girl named Faith in Columbus, Ohio, told her mama that "it's time".... So she snuggled in and stayed for the night in order to be there to help her.

Faith before she got sick...

Faith on this past Monday

Woe! That's a hard time for Faith's mama! It's a hard time for a lot of people. And it's also a very hard time for my daughter. She got home from Columbus just last night from visiting with Faith. And so last night, after spending several nights with her and sleeping in Faith's bed, Prissy crawled up in mine and cried until the early morning hours. No one is ready for this time. Everyone wishes, though is powerless to, to stop this clock from ticking.....

It's especially a hard time when you know God can heal her. When you've begged Him to. When you've believed He would. When He hasn't yet. And it doesn't look like He's going to heal her here on this earth.

Faith's mom said this morning, "Faith is still breathing although she cannot move anything or open her eyes. She has said mom three times."

Wow! Faith is still breathing... although it cannot move or see.... is true in a whole lot more ways than one! Faith is still breathing... and so is hope.... although hope is getting weaker of what we had hoped for. But we'll still have faith... even if our hope isn't answered in the way that we wanted it.

That doesn't mean we trust God any less. God has already used Faith to build others faith in miraculous ways. I don't think it ironic that that is her name. Laura, Prissy's friend said it beautifully, "Send prayers of healing and comfort up for sweet Faith and her family today. I love you so much Faith, we really did see a miracle this weekend.. you! God is in control."

Faith is the miracle! For she's already affected and changed so many people's lives. My daughter's for one! In tremendous ways.

We're still praying for Faith! And trusting our Savior! And you know, we never have to lose our hope... because our Hope is always in Him!

Prissy kept playing this song last night while tears were streaming:

You can find Faith's CaringBridge site here.


  1. GIrl.. tears are streaming!! Please keep me updated!! i LOVE you! I LOVE your daughter... and her sweet , kind, loving, compassionate (passion that comes) heart!!!

  2. You know, Bridget, we may have read the clock wrong. It just may not be the "time" that we thought it was at all. Last night Sara told Prissy about some wild things that had happened all day. One thing right after another. Too huge to explain. So God. And Faith is still with us. It's too big at the moment to tell. But as it is now, it's so big that I find it hard to doubt. I do believe that God plans to heal her. I didn't know before... but I am now believing He is.