Leaving... 2010.... but first pondering upon it some..... :)
Wow, what a year it's been! Who could have guessed the road we'd walk? The paths it'd take us on? The places we'd travel?
My sweet husband wrote in a card that he gave me for Christmas that said, "What a year! A very hard one, very tough one, very humbling one, spent on our knees, but through all of it God is FAITHFUL."....
Indeed, He has been! He always is! It has been another of one of our hardest ones ever, but one of our very, very, very, very, very, very best! I love how God abundantly blesses... even when the tides roll in and the winds blow. Perhaps even more so then than in the calmest times? Perhaps none are as precious as those? Perhaps it takes the hard and tough and humbling to open our eyes to see the blessednesses throughout in ways an easy life would never notice or be aware of? If that's the cost then, then every hard was worth it! God has magnified His wonder and glory in the depths of our very souls! Our eyes are more focused than they've ever been on His! The beauty of His face never ever more beautiful!
I won't waste my time repondering the hard stuff. Mostly because it pales in comparison to the blessings we've been given. I have never been so amazed with my God! I have never loved Him as much!
He's radically grabbed hold of and smitten and changed my oldest daughter in ways that still astound. She's so on fire for Jesus that she can hardly stand herself. He is her constant whoa-ing wonder and she can't praise Him enough. From morning til night it's all that she speaks of! She bellows His praises and is awed by His graces. He's changed her life. He's changed her mood. He's changed her world. He's given her sight for a thing she's never seen. He's lit a fire inside that blazes! He's risen a wonder that continually amazes. She simply completely adores Him! And daily now wonders what He wants to do and where He plans to take her. She's willing and wanting and waiting. He is her heart's desire! She cannot tell and talk of Him enough. And everyone around her cannot help but notice. Jesus looks good on and in her! And her fire is so fantastically blazingly contagious to all those around her in her world!
My husband has a peace that he's never felt before. No matter the wind of the storm, nothing can taunt him. God has proven His faithfulness.... over and over and over again. He's blessed us so in the wildest of ways. Not just once or twice or a few times, but too many times to count.
Even this Christmas as much as I tried to bless another, God kept blessing us more than we could bless. We couldn't out-bless Him. He poured in more than we could pour out. We gave and gave and gave... but He multiplied all the giving and gave more. It didn't add up or make human sense... but our God is just that miraculous and that good and that gracious.
I have a Senior son that is simply the very sweetest thing evah! My youngest daughter is right behind him, a Junior that trails him. She, too, seeps in sweetness! We have the very best times together. We rarely fuss, but laugh ourselves hysterically together until our sides hurt! There's a closeness within us that if it could be bottled the stores wouldn't be able to keep it on their shelves. I must admit that we rarely sleep (I suppose there's a time for that *smile*), instead we have long conversations through the night. About how good God is! About what He does! About what He wants. About how exciting it is to serve and to see Him. About how we search in our desire and longing to see even more.
I guess to sum our 2010 year up, I have to sum it up by saying that we've very much lived and felt the pursuit of God in ways we've never been aware of before. He was relentless in His pursuing with each one of us. The wonder in the attention continually blew our minds. Who am I... who are we.. that our God pursues like He does?!
Doors were open that we'd never dream of. I don't know, I wish I knew how to say it all, but there are some things that I'll never be able to say.... some things are too big to relay and convey. I so wish I could say!!! Never will I be able to thank my God and my Savior enough! If this was 2010.... I so very much wonder what 2011 holds to bring?
Oh Lord God, You are my wonder... I can't thank You enough... and I love You so much!!!!
"Many, O LORD my God,
are the wonders You have done.
The things You planned for us no one can recount to You;
were I to speak and tell of them,
they would be too many to declare." .....
"I will praise You, Lord, with all my heart;
I will tell of all the marvelous things You have done."
~ Psalm 40:5, 9:1 ~